♥ Sunday, January 13, 2008

yea its my blog's five day birthday. woohoo.

yea.. sunday. tml no sku. woohoo.. but have to pia assignment. wa kao.. haven do sia.. chui.. tml must pia! cnt play game! lol.. duno can a not..only one more week to exam. wonder if i will screw this one up..

sigh.. another day passed. 5 days since i started. time flies.

i duwan count down le.. later someone say me again.. *counts how many hours already*

hahas.. smiling will jus takes away my sorrow for a few seconds. budden after that... everything flies back into my mind.. its sunday now. 2 days nv see her le.. im missing her. really lot.

after every post, i post a song. this particular song really caught my attention. every sentence.. is wad i really wanna say.. really really sweet song..

emo boy has emo songs. i like to listen to this kind of songs.. it makes me all emotional. jus keeping quiet and listening to the lyrics. very touching.

have u ever love somebody so much it makes u cry..?

for me, yes.

you would do anything.. to make them understand...

for me, yes again.. like wad happened 3 days ago.. i gave it wad i got to try and make her understand wad i was really trying to say. becos it was a mistake. a mistake which made her mad. in the first place, the world having me here is already a mistake. everything i do is a mistake. god.

[looks at clock]
[calculates time]

sigh..

i cant sleep. jus tinking of her. i cant sleep. jus tinking of wad i haven done for her. stuff i got no balls to do.

sigh again..

whenever i see couples together. hugging each other or kissing each other, or even jus holding hands, it makes my hartache. its like the blood in my heart turns acidic and becomes sour. i really envy couples like them. seen many. it mus be really nice.. to have someone next to u wherever and whenever u are.. sad to say... i never had one. the feeling really sucks. when i see them. how i wish.. i could be like them.. together with their loved ones. of cos not only the kissing and hugging that was important.. the fact that someone else could understand me better than anyone else could, really blew me away. sigh.. when will the day ever come? or will that day ever come? proberbly not for me.. the one for me feels that im not the one for her.. wad can i do... she proberbly feels that im jus another guy trying to win her heart, out of the millions. no big deal.. to her, i m nothing. but to me, she is everything. she fills up the missing pieces in my life. wad can i say.. love cant be forced.. mian qiang shi mei you xin fu de. if she doesnt like me, i cant do anything. nothing can help. i hope someday.. someone in this world.. appreciates me as who i am and vice versa. hopefully, that someday will come... jus hopefully..

-me-
-signing off with Have You Ever by westlife-

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
[Chorus]

Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all of your life
You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care
[Chorus]

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
'Cuz baby I can't sleep
[Chorus]

never ever letting you go ): Y

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