♥ Saturday, January 12, 2008

happy birthday blog! u r now 4 days old! woohoo..

today is Saturday, 12 Jan, 2008.

10:40pm. (thats wad it says on my system tray)

1 hour and 20 more mins.

sigh.. if only she knew i missed her. if only she knew i am tinking of her and wad she is doing right now... sigh.

thruout my day. tings kept happening and makes me wonder of her.

things like me saying "okok" not knowingly. after i said that phrase, the next thing that flashed acrossed my mind was her reply... the 2 chinese words.. if only i could hear them.

while i was smiling when i said "okok".. after that. i was silent. my smile grew to a moodless expression. duno wads that called. errr..... like not happy anymore la..

sigh..

liddat nia lor.. no big deal right.. she proberbly doesnt even care right now. i really wish i could hear her voice right now. and i wanna ask her if she has finished her iwgd assignment. but i noe its ridiculous. calling a girl jus to hear her voice.

the time is 10:51pm.

1 hour and 9 mins.

69mins until i last had contact with her. not the contact u r thinking of. jus a simple msg to her and from her. very soon.. it shall be 24 hours. 24 hours since i last chatted with her. longest time yet. all the nights she chatted with me.. now it feels like she doesnt care anymore..

1 hour and 5 mins.

65mins more.

haish.

without toking to u.. its like a piece of me is missing. i cant find it. soon, more pieces of me will be missing and then i will disappear from this world.

now i noe.. every inch of my body is missing you. i mus have bad aiming.. i gotta increase my dex.. sigh.. better lvl up fast.. =x

one more thing. i changed my address so she cnt see my true feelings. sigh.. tho i really wanna her to noe.. but... suan le..

What is love? Those who don't like it call it responsibility. Those who play with it call it a game. Those who don't have it call it a dream. Those who understand it call it destiny. And me, I call it you.

this shall be about it.. conclusion.

im sorry i cant be perfect.

-me-
-signing off with the song Perfect by Simple Plan-

Hey Dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according
To plan?
Do you think I’m wasting
My time doing things I
Wanna do?
But it hurts when you
Disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good
Enough for you
I can’t pretend that
I’m alright
And you can’t change me

‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be
My hero?
All the days
You spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don’t
Care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good
Enough for you
I can’t stand another fight
And nothing’ alright

‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect

Nothing’s gonna change
The things that you said
Nothing’s gonna make this
Right again
Please don’t turn your back
I can’t believe it’s hard
Just to talk to you
But you don’t understand

‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect

‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect

never ever letting you go ): Y

10:37 PM