♥ Thursday, January 10, 2008

ok.. my 2nd post.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! my blog is officially 1 day old! yipee!.....but the sadness jus keeps getting colder.

things like this happens. duno is it expected or not.. i dint noe i was going overboard. how dumb could i get? which girl wont be irritated, u tell me. now its too late to regret..

its too late to apologise.. kcuf man.

i nv wanted this to happen. it was such a good beginning of my year. why the hell did it turn out like this. i was really hoping for something else.

the smell of u jus kept me awake. no matter wad im doing, i tink of u.

haish...

life is so unfair.. why do some ppl get wad they wan, while others spend their lives in misery. why why why.

the way u ignore me.. i jus.. simply.. cant stand it. the crack in my heart jus grew deeper today.

THURSDAY, 10 JANUARY, 2008

no idea wad happened. she jus gave me the cold shoulder. was i invading into her privacy? was i too close for comfort? i was jus trying to help her finish her assignment. was that too much? now its over.

wan to stop asking her to do her work oso no use le. i said im sorry and she thinks im giving her attitude.why the hell would i wanna make her angry? for wad. it makes me sad. now she is nv gonna tok to me again. fuck it. why are the water in my eyes when typing these? i was jus trying to bring it nicely to her that i shall stop interfering with her life. but she misunderstood. she thinks im really giving her attitude. waa fuck la yiming. fuck u. why ur words all so attitude one. why do ur words keep making ppl thinks u wanna quarrel with them. i really dont wanna fight with her.

like i said, i cant survive a day without thinking of you. why are u doing this to me? im not trying to make u repay me for all the help that i did for u. i did it at my own will. becos, you are you. and i like you.

ccb why still crying u fucker.

thursday, 10 january, 2008,
4.47pm
minutes after her comments about me

i dont know how my life would be without u. im so frikking fucked up. everything i did, i did it for u. i cant stand the pain. fuck u yiming. how can this happen to me. im sick of this life. i jus wanna scream again.

sick and tired of crying. cry cry cry. everything oso cry. cry baby. where got boys cry one. so big le still cry. ccb.

tears rolling down my cheeks again.

im jus not daring enough to let her noe what i really feel.humji kia. no balls ah. fucker. hell yea. becos u noe u r not good enough for her arent ya? cb noob.

looks likes i cant finish my game design assignment 3 now. supposed to hand in tml. cant do any shit. fail le lor. my gpa chui le lor. zzz.

cant stop thinking of what she said. keeps looping in my mind.

looping this too

do{
x=1;
System.out.printLn("yiming u suck. u should jus die")
} while (x==1);

im better off crying than typing my tears out. i wish i would jus sleep and never wake up.

-me-
-signing off with the song untitled-

Simple Plan - Untitled lyrics
Artist: Simple Plan
Album: Still Not Getting Any
Year: 2004
Title: Untitled Print
Correct

I open my eyes
I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I’m lying here tonight

And I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

never ever letting you go ): Y

4:23 PM